Anticipation

I thought I’d mentioned this, but looking back on my old posts, it seems I haven’t.
As I mentioned a bit ago, this week is national knitting week, and my knitting group have been busy knitting items for a Teddy Bear’s Picnic, culminating today in an exhibition and sale. On a Friday. Whose idea was that? When I found out, my response was “great, Mr D will never get time off work” but as the weeks progressed, so did my CBT.
About three weeks ago, I spoke to my friend B. She is my yarn guru – she has a market stall selling some gorgeous stuff, she runs weaving classes and the knitting groups, and I knew she would be going to the exhibition. I’d talked to her before about my CBT, and got the feeling she really understood. People like that are in the minority – usually it’s between “pull yourself together” and “back away from the crazy person”, but B was fine with it.
So, I asked her. “can I come with you?”
I explained that so far, I only go anywhere with Mr D. This could be part of my therapy – just outside my comfort zone. I said that I might back out, and she shouldn’t worry. People, B was lovely about it. She said that it was okay, and that even if I felt like it was too much, she’d bring me home. That understanding has meant that I’m sitting here waiting for her, and although I feel anxious, I’m also excited, expectant, eager.
I shall let you all know how I get on…

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3 thoughts on “Anticipation

  1. Giles Paterson says:

    That’s excellent. Both her being so understanding and you feeling confident enough to go just beyond your regular comfort zone.
    I hope you have a great time at the knitted picnic.

  2. Kath says:

    It was lovely to see you today, especially knowing what a challenge it was for you. But you did it! What a star!! The ‘separated twins’ theme continues. I also trained as a nurse!! Can you believe it!!

  3. Mary says:

    Like you say, it’s nice when people can be understanding about things, rather than either ostracising you or attacking you. Supportive friends are ace.
    Hope it all went well, seems like it did from the photos.

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